this is lengthy...

so, our family of 3 has been through a whole lot of change

in the last 3-4 months...

  

we sold our house

we packed our things

we moved our things to:

storage

parade house

2nd parade house

&

our rental

we moved into our rental

and started 3 weeks of parade of homes.

at some point, i will blog about our move...

it was a teary 4 weeks-and on any given day,

i think of one of my most fantastic neighbors...

and i start all over again *sniff-sniff.

we were beyond blessed to live where we did. 

to be with people who were real...genuine people.

the best kind of people.

{but, that is another blog entry}

the main question people are asking...

where are you moving?  have you started digging the hole yet?

good questions...they make sense.  

especially with ben being a builder.

we are waiting to see what God's best is for us.

and, it is soOo completely out of my

comfort zone to not have answers to these questions.

typically, you don't move unless 

you know where you are going.

this one is a mystery...an adventure perhaps.

we are also waiting for our child.

in september of 2009, 

ben and i started the paperwork to adopt domestically.

we went through classes and our home studies.

our portfolio is finished and has been turned in.

all of the necessities were completed in may...

now, we wait and we pray and we wait.

we tried to keep the adoption from olivia

for as long as we could.  we knew the wait

could be long.  we finally told her in may,

once we turned in our portfolio.

she thought the adoption agency was a hospital

and that we would be coming home with our baby

that day!  oh, this already has seemed long for her.

i talked with our social worker last week...

asking if there were any birth moms that 

had made adoption plans yet.

her answer was, 

"no, not yet...im sorry,

things are unusually slow."

so, for a quick girl like myself...my mind started

racing.  well, if things are unusually slow...

how could i speed things up?

maybe we should change agencies,

switch to foster care, adopt internationally, 

poke holes in condoms at meijer...

at 11 o'clock, i started blurting out my ideas 

to my patient, yet quite sensible ben

he actually was tracking with me

for quite a while.

i think we landed though.

remembering that God has the best plan for our family.

and His timing is not ours.  

we could never regulate heaven's time. 

we worry about the age gap between liv and the baby.

that was on God's radar before olivia was born.  

He will take care of that.

He is asking us to wait.

to wait on our home.

to wait on our child.

to wait on growing our family.

to wait on Him.

as we wait,

 i am confident that He continues to move for us.