Monday, July 12, 2010

this is lengthy...

so, our family of 3 has been through a whole lot of change
in the last 3-4 months...
we sold our house
we packed our things
we moved our things to:
parade house
2nd parade house
our rental
we moved into our rental
and started 3 weeks of parade of homes.

at some point, i will blog about our move...
it was a teary 4 weeks-and on any given day,
i think of one of my most fantastic neighbors...
and i start all over again *sniff-sniff.
we were beyond blessed to live where we did. 
to be with people who were real...genuine people.
the best kind of people.
{but, that is another blog entry}

the main question people are asking...
where are you moving?  have you started digging the hole yet?
good questions...they make sense.  
especially with ben being a builder.
we are waiting to see what God's best is for us.

and, it is soOo completely out of my
comfort zone to not have answers to these questions.
typically, you don't move unless 
you know where you are going.

this one is a adventure perhaps.

we are also waiting for our child.
in september of 2009, 
ben and i started the paperwork to adopt domestically.
we went through classes and our home studies.
our portfolio is finished and has been turned in.
all of the necessities were completed in may...
now, we wait and we pray and we wait.

we tried to keep the adoption from olivia
for as long as we could.  we knew the wait
could be long.  we finally told her in may,
once we turned in our portfolio.
she thought the adoption agency was a hospital
and that we would be coming home with our baby
that day!  oh, this already has seemed long for her.

i talked with our social worker last week...
asking if there were any birth moms that 
had made adoption plans yet.
her answer was, 
"no, not sorry,
things are unusually slow."

so, for a quick girl like mind started
racing.  well, if things are unusually slow...
how could i speed things up?
maybe we should change agencies,
switch to foster care, adopt internationally, 
poke holes in condoms at meijer...

at 11 o'clock, i started blurting out my ideas 
to my patient, yet quite sensible ben
he actually was tracking with me
for quite a while.

i think we landed though.
remembering that God has the best plan for our family.
and His timing is not ours.  
we could never regulate heaven's time. 
we worry about the age gap between liv and the baby.
that was on God's radar before olivia was born.  
He will take care of that.

He is asking us to wait.
to wait on our home.
to wait on our child.
to wait on growing our family.
to wait on Him.

as we wait,
 i am confident that He continues to move for us.