the hustle and bustle of mornings...you either love it..or, you don't.
i happen to love the rush. it can be cheery...oh, yes it can. or, not so
cheery. this morning was cheery.
i was olivia's cheerleader and i loved it.
once my little marathoner was buckled in, we were off. i asked her if
she wanted me to teach her a new song on the way to school...
knowing that she is my songbird, i knew she would be game.
so, i started singing, the Lord is good to me...doo doo doo do, doo do
doo...hmm. how does that song go? i know there is something about
apple trees...oh it's good liv, i wish i could remember the words.
olivia pipes up...well, mommy, while you are remembering those
good words...do you want me to teach you one of my songs? (:
absolutely liv! sing away.
this was her song in her heart.
God, you are amazing...you are amazing..amazing.
you can do anything we ask..make anything, everything.
you are amazing. you can even make an umbrella if you
want to. the clouds, animals, grass...you make them and
everything around us.
nothing can seperate us
nothing can seperate us
nothing can seperate us from your love.
we love you God.
her song rocked mine.
her little theology, bundled up in this song.
it touched my heart.
my faith grew this morning...thank you songbird.
thank you Jesus for asking me to really listen.
the last few weeks, okay..months, this has been my mantra...until this morning.
i was sitting in church and we started to sing
you are holy.
the line that started prying the "mic" out of my hands?
"you are my Prince of Peace and i will live my life for you."
oh, that's right...this life-that i label as "mine" really isn't all about me.
not about my plans, my agenda, my time-line on our next child, my never-ending lists...
as i pondered why those words so impacted me- to tears even, i thought back on my actions, my words, my inmost thoughts. they revolved around one person...me.
i really don't like giving up the mic...but, i gladly handed it over this morning to the Alpha, Omega, Beginning and End, my Savior, Messiah, Redeemer...my friend.
thank you Lord for the gentle reminder that You being in control is where my Peace is.
there is none other. no, not one.
He is on the move for me..for you...
I just had to put my mic down in order to see it.
oh, my p.s.... i have been praying that God will place people in my path that will help lead us in the direction of where/what to do next in terms of our adoption story. last night i spoke with a sweet friend who has adopted a little one from tawain. she had such sound advice...what an encouragement to this heart of mine. and, this morning, He put me in the middle of 3 precious women, whom i greatly admire and respect...they spoke such affirmation to me as well.
also, our dear friends carrie & anthony shared their love story this morning. the beautiful. the messy. the indescribably painful parts of losing a child. my heart broke for them again. it also went to familiar places as they shared some of the deep waters that God so gently is moving them through. david's precious little life is about so much more than we can come close to justifying this side of heaven...so i won't even begin to try. but, this morning God used his life to remind me of what matters.
thank you, carrie and anthony for sharing your story. it impacts many.