Friday, August 28, 2009

drops like stars...

i have been profoundly impacted by my dear friend, heather and her story.  
her life.  her authentic self.
she and her husband have 4 children under the age of 4.  
one of her twin daughters suffered significant brain damage at birth.
life has significantly changed in their home.

i was able to sit across from her this morning at panera and listen to new parts of her story.  
not pretty parts.
indescribably difficult, painful parts.  the kind of parts where
the words that start to describe it can do nothing else but take your
breath away.  

as i listened and grieved these new parts with my mind i wanted
to insulate her...protect her from feeling any more of this ache.  and it 
hit me that if that was even possible, it would keep her from experiencing
some of the most intimate moments that she has had with her Savior.

i saw the most beautiful in her.  
she, in the midst of her sorrow was shining.
{and not the kind that is trying to be -optimistic, positive--blah!}  
it was a true shining all the way through. 
it permeated her.  
and i realized it was because i was seeing the Most High.  
i saw that He was meeting her where she was at...and she was letting Him.
i saw the genuine and the real alongside
seeing the most painful parts that she and her husband are now walking through. 
i guess that is why i am up writing this at 4:00 in the morning.  
i couldn't sleep-not without doing something
about my experience today...i couldn't let it go unnoted. 

she lent me this book...drops like stars by rob bell.  she mentioned that it was like a coffee table-kind-of-book and it would take no less than 30 minutes to read.
as soon as i got home, i opened it and read it.  
i couldn't put it down.  i gave it to ben and he said the same thing.
we could relate to it on so many different
it is the most accurate to placing words and 
experiences to suffering and loss that i have ever come across.
if you are finding yourself in a place of suffering, or know someone else who is..this book may be a great gift for
you or someone you care about.


calli said...

i know exactly what you mean Jaren. I saw it in her too when we saw her a couple weeks ago. I've never met anyone as strong, as devoted, as understanding and patient as Heather. I'll never know how she does it, but she is such an inspiration. I don't think I could ever put into words what I see in her and what i take home with me when I'm around her. She inspires. Thanks for sharing this, you've captured her perfectly.

Redlove said...

Moving. Heather if you read this please know that you are often on my heart and in my prayers. Sorrow truely changes who we are. I pray that you are able to see our Savior through the darkness. -Michelle Loveless

Anonymous said...

Sigh. Life challenges. Why do they have to be sooooooo difficult? Why does the pain need to be sooooo deep? Oh, to know these answers. At least I know that Jesus too weeps at her pain and that she is not alone.

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