1 8 4 days

it feels like it was yesterday

that we were in the hospital with will.

i remember meeting deborah, will's birth mom.

we were so nervous and anxious.  

the first thought i had when i saw her was

 how beautiful she was.

long,  blonde hair.  

she reminded me of taylor swift.

gorgeous.

after some hugs and tears...

she asked us if we wanted to see him.

she went with us into the nicu and there we were...

the three of us looking at this little bebe.

he was

under a heat lamp,

hooked up to machines...with nurses 

 poking him..

it was that moment that my heart completely grew.

a moment that i will always remember.

i felt everything.

every emotion one can feel.

i felt them all.

so, our teeny, tiny baby is 6 months old now!

6 months.

what is he doing-you ask?

{probably what every other 6 month old is doing}

but, not really,

 because we think he is exceptional...sorry other 6 month olds..

we think he is above average in every catagory!

sitting up: check

rolling over: check

raspberries:  double check

belly laughing: check

screeching-then laughing: check

jumping in the e.s.: check

loving his FOOD:  triple check

outgrowing his clothes: check.check.check

looking like the cutest baby boy i have

ever laid eyes on:  QUAD CHECK IT!

oh, and just for the record...

i really can't help it if these are his favorite tees.

i tried talking him into a few others that were just as cute,

and he simply stopped smiling.  

we can't have that, can we?

so, i gave in...again to the mommy rocks shirts.

what was that sugar?  your mommy what?

oh yeah, your mommy does rock!!

happy 6 months, love!

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then you may want to

followgram!

followgram gives you a unique space to view

 your instagram photos online.

there are so many things i love about this site already!

the best part is...you can share your photos with someone 

who may not have an iphone or facebook account.

another great feature...

you can drag and drop your photos from followgram

directly to you blog-or desktop-or wherever!!

enjoy! 

animal prints

lately, i've had my eye on dogs.

olivia has been begging for a puppy party

for her 6th birthday.

so, i went searching for the hippest, 

most coolest party decor.

i have almost found everything i was looking for, 
and, i also

 ran across a few other

animally fun things i thought i would share... 

1.moddog prints
i adore these modern dog prints.
we are dog lovahs!  our entire family
are lovahs too.  how cool would it be
to have a grouping of the 8 dogs that
are/were  in our family.

{ r.i.p. monster and webster }

2.animals font
countless fun with this new font!

3.animal templates
you could do so many fabulous things
with these templates...shadow puppets..
matting and framing them in wild colors..  
there are so many to choose from on this site!

4.elephant collage

i love elephants!  

i can't wait to do this with liv...and will..someday.

vintage fabric is the key.

5.alphabeasties
i am enamored with everything about these alphabeasties...everything!

little Mm Aa Nn

that's right.

lock up your daughters!

he just keeps getting cuter and more snuggly...

i just had to share some sugar.

we took little man and songbird

to artprize today.

will wanted to eat the entire time...

olivia, wanted to place a vote-for each

piece of art that we saw...the entire time. (:

thank goodness for snacks.

that took her mind off of voting...for a while.

these were just a few of our favs-we had lots more.

good thing we have 2 more weeks!

ben and i went out friday night and 

saw these very cool pieces...

Loose Fit

by Monica Ponce de Leon

this piece was made completely of plastic...

it is actually quite large and has several other

tunnels like this.  

{we may or may not have crawled through the smallest one.}

Mother Earth

by Jessica Horst

this was by far my most favorite!  

she had 3 or 4 others 

in her collection.

her medium was felt and

i couldn't love a material

more than i LoVe-oV FELT!!

if you haven't been out to artprize...you must-you must!

and here is the app that makes voting a snap.

seriously, if my 5 year old can do it-anyone can. 

hope to see you out there!

random thoughts from my songbird

i have so many random thoughts-most of them

stem from my conversations with my songbird, olivia.

she may be small...but she has mighty inside of her.

the thoughts and questions she thinks of...

here are this week's conversations in a nutshell.

about her brother jack...mommy, i miss jack.

hmmm. what made you think about jack?

mommy, i think about him all the time.

wow.  this one stopped me in my tracks.

if you don't know our story, we lost jack when he was full term.

there was a tear in his umbilical chord.

olivia misses having a big brother...

**we will always miss him too olivia.

she is very excited about her new baby brother..

which brings up a whole new realm of ponderings.

thoughts about will...mommy, it's too bad will didn't come out of your belly.

really liv?  why is that?  

well, it means he isn't a part of our family.  

he is a part of deborah's family.  but not really ours. 

{deborah is our amazing birth mom}

 what makes you think he isn't a part of ours?  

well, in our family, everyone has blue eyes.  will has brown eyes.

{this topic came up a few weeks ago, and i thought it was resolved...but, apparently it wasn't.} (:

okay, so what makes a family?  

a family is when everyone has the same of something.

so, i brought up one of her friends and said, i am so glad to know that.  

i guess your friend is really my other daughter because she has blue eyes like us!!  

no mommy, wait...she has a mommy.  she isn't your daughter.

well, i thought that you said...

and our conversation kept going.

where we ended was a very different place then where we started.

i'm grateful that she is open with me about her big thoughts, her doubts, her concerns.

i'm equally grateful that God reminds me to slow down and listen to her...really listen.  and to ask her questions-questions that help me understand where she is coming from and where she may be going...

we landed in the place that our family may look different than other families...but, it doesn't change the fact that we are family.  that will is our son and he is olivia's brother.  

that that little boy has forever changed our lives for the better.

and, that we collectively couldn't imagine our lives without our little man.

he has definitely won our hearts OVER. 

lastly, thoughts about a friend that lied to her.

mommy, i just wish she would have told me

that she was a friend that would lie to me right 

when we decided to become friends.

then i would be ready to feel this way.

oh, olivia...what a great thought.

i wish we all came with tags saying how broken we are...

mine would say,

i may not be able to call you back when you would like me to

or

i'm someone who thinks about your acts of kindness all the time, but i just get hung up on how to put my gratitude into words on paper for a thank you note...

or

how about this, i will, more than likely forget about a coffee date,

disappoint by not following through on something...i'm just another broken friend.

but, i'm a good friend.  one that is loyal and loves to see you succeed as a woman in this great big hodgepodge world of ours. (:  

releasing others from our high expectations is such a gift of grace.

i long to be a woman of grace...to offer it freely.

my prayer is for my little ones to see this in my life and 

to experience the power of grace so that they may offer to others as well.


i guess to sum up my thoughts on her thoughts...her thoughts slow me down.
they create a pause button-they make me take the time to really think through my everyday and 
understand what my purpose truly is.

it is to love God and to love people.
double-love command

homemade happy meal

tonight i wasn't going to do it...

to go through one more drive thru!

now, i'm not boycotting forever-i'm just tired of forking

over $4.25 or whatever the price is-to pay for

fried up- pieced together chicken,

apples that taste like they have been dipped in chlorine,

carmel dip that has been drizzeled across the door handle and back...

and a toy that gets lost or broken in less than 3 hours flat.

as we were driving home from fort wayne tonight, it occurred to me...

we should just make our own happy meals.  

olivia could decorate the bag while

 we unpack the truck!

she was so excited!  

i know i'm not re-inventing any wheels here.

i'm sure this has been done by many of you-but, it was our first time.

and wow...did we enjoy every minute of it! (:

the best part was finding a toy that olivia hasn't played with in so long-

she didn't even remember having it.  

i love recyling toys.